Im sorry you are having such a hard time .. As Travelinglady asked are you in Therapy?

There are rules and regulations here on PC and they are for the benefit of everyone that comes here looking for support... Its ok to disagree but its done in a polite way, no flaming , name calling or just plan ugliness If that happens the Moderators will step in . If you are bothered by someone there is a very easy to find Ignore feature. The little red traingle below your name is used to report a problem with a person or a thread.

http://http://forums.psychcentral.co...-8-2014-a.html

I hope that you are able to find the support you need and want here . Welcome to PC