yea 6 year of recovery and im pretty much happy i accept for the most part

my life has improved 60 percent or more from my past

counselor says no emails or forums i cant typ and always taken wrong or anger people

i try but thats on advice and change thats hard to just shut it all off

its harder to tear me down or get upset or depressed over it but we would be liers if we said stuff still dont at least sting

im allot better and more happy i try my music parks drives i try to stay away because its to many childish judmental world online

i may have said before but i was a response officer working with cops daily

i saw things nobody wants to see or know i have seen the worst most evil dirty side of life so i thought like tar its on me and wont get off

then i met the net a monster like i never saw in my 5 years of work i thought i new how evil the monsters people can be i was wrong

whatever i have learned to stay off as much as possible and a occasional post like this otherwise ignore and except i have gottten to months without using the pc

"We're born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone."



I'm not going to change the way I look or the way I feel to conform to anything. I've always been a freak. So I've been a freak all my life and I have to live with that, you know. I'm one of those people.
John Lennon

Truth is everybody is going to hurt you: you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for.
Bob Marley


One good thing about music, when it hits you, you feel no pain.
Bob Marley

“I know all about insanity. It's not that bad once you beat up everyone who teases you about it.”
― Eve Langlais