All week I felt quite secure about my relationship with T but after I text him last night (just about a potential scheduling issue) I became really anxious, especially as he didn't text back immediately and started imaging him texting back saying "sorry I can't see you any more" or something and how I would feel and what I would do (I got really carried away with the imaginary situation)
Of course when he texted back in his usual warm way I felt cared for and content, but it highlighted how insecure I am deep down.