Thanks...

I'm trying to cope to the best of my abilites, but it's really difficult... The stables and my friend's house were the only places I felt totally safe in this world, the only place I was ok wearing skirts, or having a little cleavage... I had none of this yesterday and was still hurt and betrayed in my so-called safe haven...

I'm not sure I'll be able to go and see my horses so carefree anymore... this was my refuge and it has been taking from me. My friend, the one guy I trusted, who for years has been telling me he would protect me was standing right next me laughing, not realizing how much this was scaring and hurting me...
I still can't believe I lost within minutes everything I had spent years building up and I don't even understand why or what I did wrong.