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Everybody is in some way addicted to their technology. I am beyond addicted. I get panic attacks if my phone isn't within reach. I bring my iPad everywhere I go. I spend over 14 hours a day on my technology, and am terrified every time I leave the house that I left the chargers at home. If I don't have them on me, I dig my nails into my thighs to relieve the intense stress and heart palpitations. I only trust my Mom to watch them when I go to the bathroom. I'm terrified to leave them alone. To me, they are people. They have names. I truly believe I am as attached to them as I am because they are the only thing that has been constant in my life through the last few years. I'm afraid to let go, and don't know how to. It's an issue of control. I compulsively check the times so often that I can usually guess the time give or take five minutes. I squeeze my phone when I get anxious, and I have more empathy for my technology than I do for my family. They are the only things that can't hurt me. Does anyone else feel this way?
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"It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone." -Rose Kennedy
Bipolar II
Binge Eating Disorder
Narcissistic Personality Disorder
Histrionic Personality Disorder
Antisocial Personality Disorder
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder
Generalized Anxiety Disorder
Seroquel 500
Depakote 250 mg
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