Yes this is exactly how I think and how I operate. I hate having to dumb down to others a lot. I personally feel less human than ever since of having so many past lives. On the girl from japan, It may sound or be spelled similar. I know because I remember random japanese words and I took japanese lessons recently and holy crap I remembered everything after learning a simple greeting. I'm not even exposed to japan as much as I thought I was. It's crazy I know what it's like to hide your emotions and bringing honor to your household and respecting others being quiet around boys and not talk too much or else I would come off as crazy or clingy. In japan, as a girl being reserved and when the right man comes in is being honest except not too honest. It's how I remember being classy in japan as a young woman. My father and mother may be alive today, but I hope I do meet these people and tell them I miss them for her not for me. I feel like she haunted my childhood, because she wants me to find her parents she was murdered or I was and I am doing it for both of us. Also I felt like I have held so much guilt from my past that people don't see so if I die soon. I want to make things right for all of them.

Do you know how confusing is having a penis again after having the lady parts twice? It's like I expect to do things like females do and forget "O yeah I'm a guy!"

I confuse the every day person, people use everyone is weird to look mainstream the weird persona is the new term for normal, but I'm weird in the sense as in not normal to their weird of what is mainstream. So when I talk, I get weird looks or confusion, and I completely understand. I am very quiet about this and may appear normal, but I'm losing my mind deep down.

Telling someone I love you is so hard, not only from past trust issues with relationships, and personal beliefs. I realized I'm not so emotional in my current life, but it's overwhelming at best. If I really really like someone, I tell them, but when they want to know how I feel genuinely, but aren't interested in me. I won't tell them and I have a very hard time describing my feelings when I do.

My brain is so good at what it does, when I want to do simple tasks it takes longer for me. It's like a river of random words thoughts and ideas, and I have to grab one at a time to figure out what I was wanting to say. It makes it awkward for me and her, but even though I purposely play it off cool. I know feelings is difficult to describe to anyone when you don't know your feelings or who the hell you are anymore. I lost who I was since I was a boy and I've got a better grip, but still much worse than my previous lives.