(((hugs)))

Sometimes depression makes us hear only the bad stuff... and makes us believe all of it about ourselves. It can be tough to find God's love from any sermon that also mentions some of the negative things in the world.

Keep doing your best. God DOES love you!

Six months is not a very long time to deal with the bigger issues of our lives, esp if it's with someone you aren't comfortable with, a T your now ex picked out is not a good fit. imo.

I hope you will continue to try to do good self care, find a T that is trained and that you feel you can work with. It sounds like trust is still a big issue for you, and you are unsure of who is on your side.

God knows where you are and how you are struggling. :heart_sin: