So I said this:
That I feel like my current problem is related more to the mistake I made at the beginning of August than to my past, that I am feeling really exposed and like everyone can see how bad I am, that I feel like I have ruined everything, that being around other people is causing me to have panic attacks because I feel so exposed and bad, that there are parts of the story I am not telling because it would take too long to explain, and that I guess I didn't really want to quit, I'm just afraid and and it's easier for me to run away.