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Originally Posted by venusss
I guess for me it would feel like giving up if I fall into this "it can't never ever ever" improve mode. Than I would just really roll up and die. I kinda have to have this hope to keep going.
Forgive me yet another political analysis (yes, this eastern european chick don't understand the plight of white Americans)... but it's like if you are a naiton going through bad times. You can give up adn say "oh well, we will always have wars and dictators" or you can try to do something. Yeah, it's costly. It can wreck you. But it worked for some. Of course not for all............ but maybe the struggle is also what makes life worth it. (my personal anthem used to be this silly portugese song about struggle being a joy).
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As I said I am not in an it can never, ever improve mode(usually though I admit sometimes it certainly feels like it) and even now I don't think things will improve much any time soon if at all due to life circumstances...more of a its likely I will suffer with depression for quite a while if not the rest of my life and will have to manage it as best I can...to me that does not correlate with no possible improvements in life whatsoever just unlikely I'll up and be free of all my mental ailments so might as well do my best to live with that rather than beating myself up over not overcoming it all.
Also think what you want but its not like anyone in america who is white(at first glance does not 'have it easy' I personally am not even entirely white part native actually, but either way my parents struggled financially, I do its not like I have some great life I am just failing to see just because I live in this stupid country and happen to have pale skin. I'd be homeless if I wasn't at my moms house, might end up that way anyways...
To me struggling all the time against depression and what not, constantly does not make life worth living it exhausts me and sucks out my will to live...yet for some stupid reason I still do everything I can not to just off myself much of the time because there are people I care about it would upset and potentially cause mental damage to...if it wasn't for that i don't even know if I'd still be here.