For the past few weeks, this is all I have done. I have picked fights with people, I have annoyed people, I have purposefully driven a wedge between myself and the rest of the world. And now I've done it to my T, too.

I basically told her yesterday that I believe she mocks me, and that she hates me and finds me annoying. And then today I sent her a text semi-quitting. Sort of. And told her I didn't understand what was going on with me and that I was sorry. I don't even know if I quit at this point.

But I feel miserable. And I hate myself, and my life, and my world. And I hate feeling this way all the time. And I hate how awful I am and how many mistakes I make. I don't know what to do.