hey. that sounds like a wonderful session :-)
i'm so happy that you are feeling connected again. i was reading something and it said that in order for change to occur there had to be some fragmentation. the idea was that the therapist fulfills some function... then when that support is perceived to be lacking and / or withdrawn then there is some kind of fragmentation. then the ego kind of fulfills that function. transmuting internalisation. i've been thinking about that... maybe... the feelings of disconnection on the background of trust was what enabled you to make some of those changes. maybe.

i'm glad you are feeling connected :-)