Sorry you are so knotted up. I identify with your post because I talk to my T about emotional neglect by my parents, but I also tell her that I don't believe the story I am telling her and the picture we are creating together. I can't quite believe it is true and I think I am wrong, perhaps I it was me who was in the wrong all along. I don't know if this is anything like what you are experiencing. You are probably not the only one to have your experience and I am imagining that your T would be supportive if you come out and talk about how confused you are about it.

I'm confused too, but my T is supportive.