thanks for the recommendations

i have been keeping a journal for a long time now, is someone supposed to read it to figure out whats going on? because it looks terrible to me

i dont really have the problem of me forggeting to have medicines re-filled, its that when i try to contact someone and tell them im running out in a couple days they always procrastinate till its the weekend/ for a week
i dont know why they let this happen to me so often

i just cant tell when im stable, if i was ever stable on the medicines, because of this

without medicines i dont think i have ever been stable before in my life, so i dont know what stable feels like

so aggravating... feels like such a waste of life