You have a good T, Hazelgirl, she will be there waiting for you on Wednesday, she hasn't and won't abandon you. This is your demons talking.

From experience, I suggest rather than texts flying back and forth, which only seems to escalate the mood I'm in, be brave and ask to speak to her on the phone for a few minutes. Because hearing her voice will ground you. Hearing my T's voice and getting support always takes the wind out my sails and calm me back down.