About a month ago I was in a hyper-manic state and often I want to do home improvements in this state (or drastically change my appearance...basically I desire change when hypo). Anyway- I decided I was going to remodel my kitchen (which could use some updates). I tore down a wall and bought paint, countertop paint, hardware etc. and Along with the torn down wall I now have no cabinet doors which I took down to clean a sand. I have since been out of this hypo state and I did force myself to sand the doors, but my kitchen is now in such a mess of remodel and I have no desire to finish the job. All the work I planned out to do which seemed so easily doable is in reality a LOT of work that will most likely take months (not the 2 days I thought I could do it in).

I now have no idea what to do. The thought of all the work is overwhelming. We don't have the money to hire out. Do I force myself to finish? I am so ticked off that I started this.

The other thing I did during this hypo state was make out with my manager at work while both our spouses were inside the building so I guess that is a luttle worse than a messy kitchen.