well i mean-that NO MATTER if you actually GOT YOURSELF into that situation when you are an easy target-but you EVEN DON`T KNOW that you are!

only after it......you can understand. when you start SUFFERING. i don`t consider myself a hard case. mine was LIGHT thank God. and i didn`t know i was actually being used/abused untill i told some of my friends and they said "he raped you"
which wasn`t true but still. PARTICULATY,
what i learned from it is to never do anyhting that i don`t want to do.

so one friend of mine said "it was your fault becasue you let him do it."
yep i was in SUCH A %#@&#! SHOCK that i didn`t reject.
anyways i guess it was the only way i LEARNED.