Emily,

I am sorry. It does appear that you are depressed.

I think that sometimes as we read things we have to let go of some of it as it is not an one size fits all kind of thing.

I think you are having alot of people here agreeing with YOU in terms of your personal experience.

Time to let go of this ...you can do it..... and work on nourishing yourself to get out of this place you are in. (I am currently doing this too.) Focus on things that you know will get you out and then we can come back to this.... and it may look differently.

Peace within....