I've been in three psych wards. In two of them the staff messed with my head. The following are examples of what was done:

• The staff would rearrange my shelf and take things like my toilet paper and my snacks.
• They would change my meals so that I didn't get coffee or something else I liked.
• I firmly believe there were psych students on the ward because one day when I didn't get coffee I made some and another "patient" got very angry with me and tried to keep me from drinking it.
• They would put different colored Post-It notes on my food tray at every meal.
• They would arrange the toiletries on my sink in a specific way. If I didn't put them back that way they would arrange them their way again.
• They locked my bathroom so that I could only use the public bathroom in the hallway.

These things happened to me daily or multiple times per day. They deepened my depression and exacerbated my psychosis. Other things happened, but my memory has gotten so bad because of my illness that I can't remember them.

I was in a place where I should have been made to feel as safe as possible and, in reality, I didn't feel safe at all. One night I asked to be locked in my room. That is how unsafe I felt.

I didn't talk to anyone about it because I was terrified.

If you have been hospitalized, have you been messed with? If so, what was done? How did you feel about it? Did you talk to anyone about it?