I cant bring my self to tell the truth when asked how i am. I always lie and say im fine. Im not fine. Ill never be fine. I attempted to end things recently and it didnt work. It was a very serious attemt, not s cry for help. I finally told my support worker which took a lot of courage to do because im such an inward person, ususually suffer in silence. She arranged to meet me but she didnt turn up, didnt even call me to see how i am. I feel sorry for her too because her mum recently passes away, so i would never dream of having ago at her. At the same time im not getting the support i need
i really dont know how much more of feeling like this i can take.
I dont know what to do any more.
I really hate myself, everything about me, what i say what i dont say. Even after i eat i feel mad at my self for eating. I havent got an eating disorded tho i did when i was a teen. But the feelings i get after ive eaten are really self loathing
Can any one relate to how im feeling? And do you suffer on silence the way i do, rather than fighting for help?