I am very sad today. Just sort of overwhelmed with the thought that I have to live in this town for the next year to two years. It is so economically depressed, and this house we just signed a lease on has turned out to be a pit. Sometimes I feel cursed. I try to cheer myself up, but it never lasts. The cloud just descends again. I can't stand myself lately. Called the therapist/pdoc office for the second time, still get answering service. Live in remote rural area and they are the only game in town. I feel demoralized.
Buck up. Pull your head out of your ***. Do something!