Of course you don't have to recover. You can stay miserable for all I care. Your recover for yourself, not others. You don't have to spend so much energy defending why are you feeling bad. That is dwelling and it is unhelpful. It will not change how you feel.......... and even if you gain few crumbs sympathy.... what will that do for you?

I am pretty sure there are therapists who will take your hard earned money and validate you through and through. Will it make you happy? Better? Not sure.

I think you have your opinion, and nothing will changing at this point. Wish you the best. May you use what works for you and have strenght to ditch what doesn't work....

I'm done here.