There's too many things wrong with me. I don't just have depression. I have like 5 mental illnesses. And it's really hard to do anything when it's like this. I can't even overcome 1 illness, let alone 5. Taking small steps and having small goals doesn't work. All of my problems are so interconnected and related that if 1 of them isn't fixed, it makes it so the other problems can't be solved. In otherwords, if all of my problems aren't solved, none of them will be. If I get over social anxiety, I'll eventually relapse because I'm still depressed and I still have body image problems and obsessive thoughts. It doesn't help that I'm addicted to porn either, which makes the whole situation 10x more complicated and difficult. This is too difficult. I can't do it. Its too complicated and overwhelming. I want to get over this already, but I fear that I'll never get over it and live my life. I'm sick of it, I want it to end right now, I'm sick of living like this, but the problem is, I don't know what the f*** to do. I wish it was as simple as being told what to do so I can get over this. But it isnt. It never is. I'm seeing a therapist, but how can he help me with all these problems? He can help me with a couple, but there's no way he can help me with all of them. I just feel trapped and scared. I just want to know what to do, I don't want to sit around day after day questioning things to know what to do. I'm confused and desperate for anything that can help me, my therapist and parents tell me to take small steps but what they don't understand is that all of these problems can't be solved separately. They have to be solved all together at once, and that's what makes it feel so difficult, even impossible. I'm so sick of waiting for something to help me, I want to live life already, I can't waste any more years like this. I'm 18 years old, I don't want to be worrying about this when I'm 28. It makes me hopeless to think about how little resources there are these days for mental health too. I just don't know anymore. I want to get past this but I don't know what I'm supposed to do, it's not necessarily that I wont. How can someone help me if they can't understand me? Seems like I should save my breath because trying to convince someone how I feel is useless and a waste of time. I'm just speaking nonsense and I kinda just get told that yeah, you're mentally messed up, just get up and do something. I'm so f***ing sick of hearing that phrase, it grinds my f***ing gears so much, well if I wasn't f***ing depressed in the first place, I would be doing something. No one can help me, I don't even know why I created this thread, I might as well be talking to the wall because no one is going to help me. So if your still reading this, which I'm sure you're not, it would be nice for some advice, but if you dont, I don't blame you, who would want to read this long useless rant anyways?