I decided to join this site for more insight on what i can do.

I met the most wonderful girl ever in the world 2 years ago. Hit it off like a charm and everything was perfect. Went everywhere, spent every minute we could together so forth. we were even engaged once but called it off because her parents were supportive. Other than that there was no problems. She was caring,sweet,faithful. literally the perfect woman. My father passed this year in a drunk driving accident and it threw me off alot. She was always there through it all. We got a place and she practically lived with me but her family was very christian so she didn't fully live with me. We had lunch together everyday. We even got a dog. It was in other words complete bliss.

One night i got extremely drunk and emotional and high and I had sex with another girl. My gf walked in and it went bad. But she followed me at the end of the night to make sure i was ok because i was a little suicidal. I knew what i did was wrong the moment i did it. She stayed the night and we stayed together for almost 2 months after the incident. She even said she was happier than she ever was. I did all i could and she was my main focus. It was going just fine. Then i had bad days at work and in life and i lost the focus. we started arguing and we broke up 3 days ago. 10 minutes after she said it was over she texted me i love you. Texted me 3 times to make i mad it home. She called me at 1:30am cryiing just needing to hear my voice.

I was confused so i went over there the next morning. She lives with her parents. I crawled into bed with her and wrapped my arms around her. She did the same. We woke about a hr later and she walked me out. Explaining she told her mother what happened. That she can't do this anymore but its not what she wants. She tells me she loves me, hugs me, gives me a kiss and says she will be over later. She comes over a couple hours later to get her things and her car. She takes 2.5 hours doing so. We talk a little, mostly about how much we love each other, but she needs space and were taking a break. She doesn't take all her things. She calls me later that night to hear my voice and to exchange I love yous. She texts me the next day about her day and we talk on the phone for 15 minutes and she says she will call me later. We text occasionally through out the day and she calls me before she goes to bed. Tells me she misses me and loves me. good night.

She comes over this morning to have coffee. She was acting weird so i decided to put it all out there. I explained to her how much i appreciate her and what she means to me. Get down on my knees and explain to her i know her pain and i know what i did. How amazing she is and how much i love her. she says some same things but stays quiet cause she can't stay composed. She says i can't do this now and she starts getting her stuff. I ask her if this is really what she wants and she says its needed.

I tell her this is not the end of us and she says it to. She starts to put her stuff in the car. I carry out a bag. THIS IS WERE I NEED INTERPRETATION!
She grabs my hand and holds it and walks me back into the living room. I tell her let it all out tell me. No regrets. She says i am really going to miss you,that she wishes she could give me more chances that her heart is no longer 100% happy. That she just wants me to be happy and i am amazing. To wait to contact her cause she will text me. I walk her out, holding hands, my arms wrapped around her. We get to her car she turns round hugs me. Kisses my neck and tells me i love you. I tell her we will be together one day again that she will be mine once more. That i will never stop fighting for her. She jumps into my arms and kisses me. One of those the world completely stops kisses. Looks at me and says i have alot of hope we will be together again. She says i will always have her heart and she will always have mine.

Another world halting kisses and hugs, holding each other smiling, i say forever and she says always. She says i love you i say i love you more. She can't stop smiling. I say one day, and she replies with it won't be long. I pinky promise i will always be hers and she does the same. She says its only me and it always will be. We say goodbye and she pulls out. Blowing me a kiss and i do the same.

What do i do to get her back. So much has happened in these three days. But i know its not really over. I am not contacting her becuse i am respecting her wishes. But when she said it won't be long and everything else i am confused on what to do. She is the love i have ever wanted. Through everything she has always been there and i will do whatever i can till i cannot no more to have her back.