being socially awkward, lacking self confidence and having somewhat eclectic tastes does not mean something is wrong with you. it is not everyones cup of tea and some would judge you for it but as long as you are not hurting anybody it is none of their business. I suspect you just feel weird about it because it is not part of the social norm. but a lot more people do it than will admit to it I would bet...lol.

what you need to do is focus on your self confidence. start making a list of your strengths and really recognizing them and praising yourself for them. commend yourself when you do something good. you probably don't get enough praise. make decisions that make you feel proud of yourself. this will raise your selfesteem. take care.