I think you are just confused about your self right now, As Kaliope suggested working on building your self confidence would help you alot

Here is a link to another forum we have here , maybe it will help you to know that you are not alone .. There is another link but for some reason it wont let me copy past... Just scroll down all the forums.... its down at the bottom of the link I gave to you .

http://http://forums.psychcentral.co...gender-issues/

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