Hello hcm172:

Two Forums here I could suggest you check out include: the Transgender & Other Gender Issues Forum, & the Sexual & Gender Issues Forum. You can find both of these listed in the Index. I think if you read through some of the posts on these forums you will see you are not weird & there is nothing wrong with you.

The important thing, in my opinion, is to not develop a sense of guilt. You do want to exercise discretion with regard to who you talk to about these things. However avoid getting into the habit of hiding things (such as the clothing of the opposite sex, if you have acquired some for cross-dressing purposes.) My experience has been that it is the guilt & secrecy plus the hiding that are damaging. From that perspective you may find some therapy, with a therapist who has experience working in the field of sexuality, may be of benefit along the way.

Particularly at your age sexuality can be both a confusing & intriguing experience. And being shy certainly isn't the least bit unusual. As others have suggested here, focus on building your self-confidence.