I hope my vision's okay. Last night I had a terrible anxiety attack. I've got a headache right behind the eye where I had surgery. That makes sense, but I would think it would have gone away by now. I don't know though. I once had a migraine for 3 days just from having my eyes dilated. But I keep getting afraid that I won't make it 2 weeks (time for the lasering to heal) because the surgery will have exacerbated whatever part of my eye was problematic. He told me that was NOT the case -- that if the surgery didn't help, it wouldn't make it worse. But I can't believe that wasn't somehow traumatic to my eye. That's just a hard thought for me to get around.

Anyway, I had a horrible panic attack last night where I had all these crazy thoughts. I got these ideas that if I moved I would go blind. Or if I looked at the clock (somehow the clock became cursed) that I would go blind. It was really crazy. I recognize that those are irrational illogical OCD-style thoughts, but I couldn't seem to shake them off. I think it was because late in the night on Saturday would be the most difficult time to find any help if I were suddenly having bad symptoms.

The headache scares me though. But it isn't new -- it's been there since the time of the surgery. I just think it should be gone by now.

I'll be much less anxious once I'm at work tomorrow. The eye place I went to is only a few blocks from my office so I could always go over there.

I've had crazy panic attacks before. I remember once being deathly terrified of lightning. I still can't (safely) drive if there's lightning. This panic attack related to my eyesight is awful though. I'm attempting to be more calm and rational now. Any suggestions?

Sidony