You shouldn't feel guilty for having sex to "check out your penis". Most people have sex just for their own pleasure. You were obviously honest with this woman about your past issues, so there was no deception.

I agree, you should be able to move on in your personal development and work on finding someone to have a relationship with...which at some point and time in the future would lead to sexual relations. You should be happy to know that it is possible to have a fulfilling relation with someone that doesn't involve sex. When that relationship develops to the point that you both want sex, you will be able to be confident that your penis is up to the task and that you have a strong emotional link to make that mechanical act of sex into a wonderful shared experience.

Good luck!

I am so happy for you. I agree with bixkf. You did nothing wrong. There was no deception involved. Just a nice girl helping a nice guy get some much needed answers. No harm done.

I am glad you found the answers you were looking for. I wish you the best of luck in the future. You know if you have any questions this is a great place to come to. I am sure you are welcome to PM any number of us. I know if you need to talk privately you may contact me threw PM. I would be happy to help any way possible. Take are.