Hi again!
I know the title stinks of reactionary chauvinism. Sorry for that. It's not my intention.

As I already told you in another thread, I've been circumcised a month and a half ago. I had sex recently for the first time after the surgery, and it arised that question. And all-time question, should I say: I've been wondering about it before the circumcision.

It's simple, I guess, and probably I'm overanalizing, when I ought to rather not mind and just enjoy.

Anyway...
I love being on bottom. I love being rode by a woman. Not because I'm lazy. Actually, I love doggy, too. Missionary just doesn't make it for me (not yet, at least). But having the woman on top is one of the things I enjoy the most, if not the thing I enjoy the most.

What makes me worry is not being accused of laziness (which wouldn't be big deal), but feeling less of a man. Or feeling less of a man before women's eyes.

I mean... "Less of a man" in terms of control, initiative, "alphamaleness", etcetera.

Rationaly, I know it's medieval to believe that penetration and male domination are everything. Also, I know that sex is something both of lovers make together, and that being a man and a good lover relies more on be emotionaly open and tender and sweet and caring, and that it doesn't depend on penetration itself as much as it depends on kissing and caressing and hugging.

But I can't help feeling weak and submissive (in the wrong sense) while being on bottom, rode by a woman.

Any input? Can anyone please help me to see things differently? Because I'm unable to do it on my own.

And, of course, I don't mean to ask you to tell me what I want to hear.
Thank you in advance!