A18, I've been there before - and I literally saw no other option other than death. Everything that could possibly go wrong did, and even more. I was depressed, suicidal, and in more pain than I thought possible. But... the key? It's to keep hanging in there. Because even at the bottom of a dark ocean, drowning in your own emotions and negative experiences, there's still a stream of the light - you just have to find it, and hold onto it with all your might. Because I PROMISE, things get better. Your life will be so beautiful - so please please PLEASE don't give up yet.