Raceka. I think just stopping your meds is not such a good idea??? I think the crying is something we do as we reach a new level of healing. I understand the fear you feel around therapy ending, but its not going to happen tomorrow. I understand how much you feel you wouldn't be able to achieve what your achieving if it was'nt for your T, but that will change, bit by bit if your T does his job right will allow you to regain your personal power and know that you alone are the one that directs your future life. At this stage of your recovery yiou are very vunrable and disempowered but that will change.

Do you journal? That is a great help, a great way to see things objectively. Have you spoken with your T about what is ok and what isn't ok about contact out of session?? I know my T doesn't mind me contacting her if I feel very overwhelmed.

Oh I think you've been very brave re your son and his addiction. for what my opinon is worth you have taken all the right steps in dealing with that and keeping yourself safe.