One of the things that frustrates me the most when I'm feeling at my lowest is when people give me lists of things to try in order to feel better. Read these books, see this therapist, go to this clinic, exercise more, do reiki, do yoga, meditate, change your diet, sleep more, sleep less, etc. ad nauseum. ONE suggestion is a lot to contemplate (like, how can I read a book when I can't even register what the title means because I can't focus??); more than that just pisses me off and makes me feel completely overwhelmed and hopeless. Picking ONE thing to focus on, a little at a time, might be a better approach than trying to tackle everything all at once. And although you might fault yourself for having undesirable behaviors, don't fault yourself for not being able to stop them all at once. It's not humanly possible. It just sucks that it takes time to pick through things a little at a time and still feel like crap in the meantime. Although I don't have all the same issues as you, I do know the feeling of utter frustration at not feeling ANY relief for what seems like forever. I hope your therapist and you are able to find little ways here and there to help you feel better and not feel so overwhelmed. Hugs.