I am making pretty good progress in therapy. On a typical day, my depression and anxiety are under control. My SUI thoughts aren't severe. I am able to keep myself busy and use my coping skills.

Then my fiance enters the picture... (Back story: been together 9 yrs, he locked me away in our house for 6 years, he's verbally and emotionally abusive, and earlier this year he broke my elbow...his family owns our house and our car.) I've heard many times: "Leave him; he won't change". It's a delicate situation and I'm trying to improve myself so that one day I can leave if I choose to.

But in terms of therapy, he keeps making things worse. He will sit there for 2 hours verbally attacking me until I mentally and physically fall apart. And then I'm either left with going to the hospital, going to a crisis house, or calling my T.

He even at times threatens to move me away, quit his job, so he can watch over me 24/7. He also goes back and forth between hating and loving my T and Pdoc. W/o him, I have no transportation to get to my appointments.

I keep getting better, and he keeps making me worse. My T and I have tried to come up with some coping skills: lock the bedroom door, call the crisis line, call 911, call her (my T), stay with my mom for a few nights, climb out the bedroom window, take anxiety meds, light a candle, sit by the window and be mindful. The problem is that I don't have full access to the house when he's yelling at me.

Well, it happened again tonight. This time was so bad I disassociated. I can't leave him, but he's so dangerous to my mental health.

Has anyone else had to deal with this or a similar situation? How do you cope when a loved one is a trigger?

If there's no advice, can I just ask for some support? I have to keep fighting to get better so I can become independent and get away from here.