Like with the interaction with people (family) who seem to be manipulative by nature. Like you been through this so many times. You can predict what's gonna happen. It used to enrage you and you would argue and say what you were seeing and tried to change people and tried to tell them how much it hurt you...but now, now it's more of that ****ing pain inside, like your mouth taped shot, you watch the same **** happen...like a soldier in war...watch yet another person die and he doesn't feel anything but feels like a part of him is slowly dying, little by little. Maybe it's the part that could feel love.