I posted about this a couple of weeks ago. I'm still undecided. Seeing her brings up a huge amount of emotion in me (anxiety and feelings of worthlessness, and horrible feelings of rejection that I must have felt as a child but have surpressed). On the one hand I think that therapy must be working if it is bringing out these powerful emotions. On the other hand I imagine there is another therapist out there who will talk to me more gently, who will listen more kindly. I have talked to my T, but she attributes my feelings to our summer break rather than to me finding the way she challenges me tough to handle. I know my feelings relate to transference but I'm not sure we can actually get over it. I don't want to give up on this with her, maybe if I stopped now I'd be stopping at the vital part? But I can't actually see me ever feeling better about going to see her. I'm still planning to go again next time, to try to talk more about how I feel when she challenges me.

This is my first ever T, I've been seeing her for about 11 weeks. I'm thinking of trying someone else while carrying on with her. It feels a bit crazy. If I did this I wouldn't tell either of them. Any thoughts?