This is my first time posting on here..
I've realized that I do need help. I've been dealing with depression for years now and I've notice it gets worse each year. I try my hardest not to hurt myself, but it's getting harder each night for me to stay in control. I don't hang out with anyone really, because I never truly feel good enough to. I can't sleep at night because of insomnia, so my depression really hits then. I feel like anyone I talk to does not or won't truly understand how I feel. I don't just have depression, I have schitz, anxiety, and other issues I deal with from day to day. It's making me feel hopeless.
I don't intend on ever committing suicide, but I'm tired of feeling the way I do. I feel like there's a black blanket of bad thoughts over my head all the time. Other people make being positive and happy look and seem so easy. I just don't understand or feel like I could ever be truly happy. So I know I need help, but I don't know how or where to go. I'm 18 years old and I don't want to get my parents involved. They already have a lot of issues going on in their life and I don't want them to worry about me. This is something I want to do on my own. I was hoping someone could help me out on here and point me in the right direction.