Hi Brown Owl! Do you feel a connection with this T yet? You mention you kind of need someone who is gentle and kind - do you find your T doesn't fit this criteria? I completely understand about needing someone with a gentle approach, and it's the one thing I value most about my T. I get anxious about going to see her too, but I'd be far more anxious if I found her abrupt. She challenges me, but really softly and with an awareness of where I'm at. It sounds like you've been thinking about this for some time, so maybe it's worth listening to yourself?