I was molested by my father, and I know I'm not even able to recall all of it. Sometimes I get weird little images/clips, but usually never whole pieces.

((Back Story))The truth about my father came out into the open, in a really twisted way (while talking to my mother), and then after my mother tried to act like everything was still normal, like a huge bombshell wasn't just dropped. I stopped talking to her and she would call me excessively, leaving me messages telling me I was causing her a great deal of pain.

Anyway, yesterday I remembered something that really freaked me out (not sure if it's real?), but it was about my my mother. She was holding a pillow over my face, I remembered what it felt like, panicky, heart racing. I remember thinking she must not know I can't breathe? Now I am freaked out and confused. I don't know of it was just some bizarre daymare, that my mind made up, or if it's real. Either way, I am hurting