Have you ever gotten an assignment from your therapist that you just couldn't do? When I started seeing my therapist 6 months ago, I told myself that I know she's not out to hurt me, so when she asked me to do something, I would at least try it. She asked me to tell her how much I weigh, and I did, even though I'm pretty sure not even my wife knows that. She asked me yo takey big old body to a karate studio and move and run and hit and kick punching bags. I did it even though I was afraid she would laugh at my jiggling floppy body (of course, she didn't). So now about 6 weeks ago, she asked me to start writing a letter to my abusers, and I cannot do it. I've tried, and I end up shaking or dissociated or with huge headache or starting flashbacks, so I don't do it. T asks me about that letter each time I see her, and I just tell her that I can't do it, and she just smiles and tells me that I'll do it when I want to. Aaaasrrrrggghh!