Just got out of session. I don't usually post details about session because I find our moments to be sacred. Today I feel sad though. We had a light-hearted session, because it's been a stressful week for me and realistically...I wouldn't have been able to handle an intense session. I've been so numb lately. T and I corresponded over email 2x this week, and normally just hearing from her brightens my week but in this case, I couldn't feel anything. The numbness is weighing heavy on me. I can't listen to music like I want to because it sounds excessively loud and can't cross the barrier I need to be able to enjoy it. But, again, this session T decided to make light and while I know it was necessary because its all I could handle...I still feel so broken. And empty. And mocked. I feel like I was just the annoying moody person that no one wants to be around; a burden to society, a burden to T. I feel like if I feel like this next session, I shouldn't even go. Whats the point of going and sitting quietly and staring and pouting? I can be sad in the comfort of my own room. I know i'm overly sensitive right now but... I feel like this session, in which we (well, she; I didn't say much) talked about all positive things, made me hate myself just a little more.