I think you know what many of us are going to say about not going. Don't do it! The terrible loneliness of being left to sit in our emotional pain is probably the worst feeling in the world, but punishing yourself for how you feel by restricting yourself from one of your most important and caring resources, your therapist, really isn't going to help in the long run.

It sounds as though she clearly picked up on how emotionally fragile you were in the session, but she might have gone about supporting you the wrong way. Maybe she needed to help you voice all those feelings of sadness and despair, allowed you to vent the built up pain and anguish. Sometimes those feelings don't pour out in a huge gush; sometimes they trickle out. Sure those feelings are faulty and distorted, but you probably needed to talk about them. I know that when I'm in that place, talking about rainbows and sunshine isn't helpful. In fact, it's downright irritating and a waste of my time. It often makes me feel even more alone because what the person is saying doesn't fit with my view or perception of life at that moment. I'm not saying she should have allowed you to freely and harshly dump on yourself, but maybe you needed more space to talk about the ugliness inside rather than those darn rainbow thoughts being slathered on.

I hope you go to your next session and talk about exactly how you felt post session. It will probably lead to some great session material. Good luck!