I'm glad that you have a good therapist - I just don't think I can. I'll keep trying.

I messed up again. The past two weeks have been insane - I've barely studied and in 15 days, I have a huge exam... and I'm more worried about how I'll look than how I'll do. I just keep binge eating and crying. Reaching a point where I feel great and then I plummet. For the past 10 days, I've wanted to just sell all of my stuff and move away - start over. But it's the same thing over and over again - if I run, will I follow? I probably can't outrun this - all I can do is keep trying, I guess.

So, tomorrow is a new day. Now, I'll just have to stop and now go to the store and buy the two pints - yes, two - I'm craving. Because they will only make things worse. Ironically, my plan is the same as always, wait until as few people as possible can see me - hence, when it's dark outside and it makes more sense to wear a heavy coat. I'm that uncomfortable in my own skin, so why would I keep binging today and make it worse?