I can't answer your question because it may be due to something inside of you or in your past that is making it hard to accept what the therapist is trying to do.

The therapeutic relationship is I guess in a way "fake." I mean you arrange to pay someone who starts out as a stranger to listen to and support you, to help you, even to have an attachment of some degree.

This may not help, but my therapist once joked about the idea that therapists are "emotional *****s," but he meant it to criticize the idea that therapists are just taking money from needy people. Most really are committed to what they do and often really do have a genuine interest and even affection for people they see. It isn't fake, even if it may have things about it that keep it from being like other relationships.

But I do realize that there are doubts or frustrations or other things that come up. My therapist recently texted me and added "fondly" when signing off. Not often done. Therapists tend to avoid direct expressions of affection so they don't confuse people. At first I seemed to take it in stride as just a nice thing, but later found I was thinking about it, not as fake, almost the opposite, but something that made me wonder.