Alright, it's been a while since I posted on PsychCentral, but I figured I'd update my scenario to an extent.

I've been with my boyfriend for over 3 years now and things have dramatically changed within the past year. He claims that he took our relationship as "serious" back in November and ever since, he's become a verbally abusive partner... Now the question is why? Things haven't always been great but why is there now a level of abuse? He claims that my personality is the reason for him calling me "retarded" and saying that I'll never amount to anything in life. He sometimes says that he's only with me because he "feels bad" for me. If that's the case then what was the purpose of staying for 3 years?

Now, I've attempted to leave on 2 occassions. I packed my bags and made a ditch effort to my parents' house... well... that sends him into an emotional frenzy. He will cry and cry and start puking all over himself to the point where I think he's going to change. And yes! I know! This sounds like a typical battered wife syndrome! Trust me... it feels like I'm being abused, especially when he doesn't let me leave the apartment. There's also "going to be a problem if you try to leave" and that makes me want to leave even more. But a part of me likes the sweet man that comes out of the angry tyrant and I keep kicking myself in the tush for it.

I don't know what my boyfriend really thinks or feels. I mean, he is bipolar and I'm not trying to generalize, but I can't see the truth because the messages change. It's almost like seeing the bright sun over my head and then suddenly it begins to rain and you're left wondering what just happened... I thought it was going to be a nice day.