Hey everyone, firstly I wonna say I'm sorry if this post will seem thrown together I've had a stomach virus since thursday so I have a lack of energy.

Most kids my age (17) are extremely outgoing, and adventourous. From what I see they enjoy it. When I go to call a friend I find 9 times out of 10 their gone(except for 1 friend). I also have friends who I speak to over Myspace, I find their reply being days before I recieve it, while me I sit checking every hour, and reply almost immediatly only to continue the cycle.

Its difficult for me or anyone with depression to WANT to go out, and at 17 (me atleast) I don't have my drivers license(dads to busy to take me to get them) and I have no job. I wonder an awful lot as to what I'm turning into....I'm so lonely, bored , and down that I find myself even on days I'm sick wanting someone to hold me.

So whats the trick? I've never been invited to go anywhere by friends, so I dunno how to get myself "out" their and if I did who knows how I'd react.
Thanks for reading