I just read your previous thread to understand the background a bit better. It left off right with you saying you told her what you were afraid of. It didn't say whether she responded either to that or just in general to the appointment today.

It did say that she was concerned and that you could show up and talk about anything, not necessarily any of this. You do have the option. At times when things are too hard or feel too hot to handle, sometimes picking something else to focus on is grounding and makes the other issue easier when you are ready for it.

A therapist I had once told me that you don't and can't always dive. Sometimes just floating and breathing is the best thing to do. Perhaps he should have included wading?

I don't know if that is helpful or not. I don't know you well enough or what is truly the issue. I know I do feel anxious about interactions I've had and strange about showing up to session. I start usually pouting and silent, but my therapist usually has a way of approaching me that makes me feel more comfortable.

Yours sounds like she will be sensitive and certainly nonjudgmental, perhaps know how to approach you to make you feel more comfortable, perhaps even sense that maybe going into things isn't the best right now. Just being there for the connection is all that actually needs to take place from my point of view.