I don't think there is anything in your post that I haven't thought myself. except I don't have the family. I ditched them when I was 21. they sucked so I cut them off. didn't need that negativity in my life. it has taken me a long time to evolve from these thoughts. I think meds helped a lot. therapy certainly. but a lot of it was feeling better about myself. focusing on my strengths and finding a job that meant something to me, where I was doing good each day. and being supported, or I should say allowing myself to be supported by those around me. not focusing on myself as the outsider but believing that people really do care. take care.