What type of interests do you have Moonkin? A lot of tmes people find friends with people of like interests. I believe that there are chess clubs, debate teams etc. if you are not into sports

It is hard to change how you react with other people and can be very uncomfortable. I really think it would help if you could stick with a t who can help you work through a lot of this. I know you feel they don't care. They aren't a friend but like a guide to help you through whatever you may want to change.

I wish you good luck and am sorry you are struggling so.

BB