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Originally Posted by FightingMyself
I am losing the battle with her.
It's been 2 months and she hasn't bothered me.
Now all I want to do is reach out to Matt, my former lover. We are both married, I know it's wrong. She keeps telling me it will be okay, that no one will find out. I know better, but I feel my internal fortitude waning.
Her fingers are creeping up out of the abyss and putting thoughts into my head that I just don't want to have. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to stop it. I have almost given in several times today alone.
Every moment of free thought is a battle and I am losing it.
I go to the doctor Friday, thankfully. I hope I can hold her off until then.
Any advice is appreciated.
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I have had thoughts that if I acted on them it would hurt us. I found that if I ask the part that is having the thought why they want to do a specific thing and if they think that thing is in all of our best interest. Sometimes the part that wants to do something isn't thinking it all the way through. The questions give the part the time to think about it. Hope you feel better soon.