I should only mention that even thou my hubby did what he did we are currently trying to work things out. I take half the blame for my hubby I should have done more tried to find more time_ more us time. I was just being pulled in so many directions. Again I'm really surprised that I didn't have a break down with my son. But as long as my marriage was in a good spot it helped me. It was one part of my life was not quickly falling apart.
This is not how my life is suppose to be I'm not suppose to have a cheating hubby a broken boy, being sued by hospital, almost losing our house a couple of times. This is such a failure of life. I had trouble finding someone to talk to cause I was having thoughts of driving my car in a pond with my son in the car. Asking me why I'm crying and saying that it's ok mommy. I called the local centers and got put on hold. So I kept call will no luck of talking to a person. I gave up 2 hours later. I tried to so a actual therapist they could fit me in for 2 weeks and was more concerned about insurance. My bother inlaw ending complaining to the local center. So they send down a therapist a hour away I see him every week for the last year. Life just scares me. I'm not the same person I'm a strange to myself. Sorry I'm just having a bad day. If I chase you guys away I'm sorry!